Damage

I don't have the control now. I can't really do much. I mean, I can, but really I can't. I can just piece back what I ruined, face it, hope for the best and go from there on. But, honestly, I'm not suave. I'm not good at this. I'm awkward.

The effort isn't enough. In fact, it has caused some bad damages. I don't know what to do from here. I'll try again when I'm back in LA.

Winter Wonderland

It's Xmas eve. It's almost a new year. I'm almost 18. I need to step it up, in many aspects.
I've come to thinking, I need a legit list of resolutions:

1. Accept my family with all of its imperfections, frustrations, traditions, etc.
2. Prioritize my studies above all. Stay ahead and no more slacking.
3. Assert myself and the things I want. No more missed opportunities.
4. Strengthen relationships with family, friends, God, romance, etc.
5. Consecrate the year to the Lord. Bible reading, fellowship, etc.
6. Leave behind all regrets, doubts, fears and start acting upon them.
7. Complete this in all fun, satisfaction and pride.

Nothing else matters

God gives me the strength
to get through the rough, patchy day.
God gives the power
to overcome my sins away.
God is my everything
In all the things I say or do
He is my Savior, Brother and Love.

All these sorrow, worries and defeats
are nothing but temporary
They don't mean anything
cause He is my God.
He is my Comfort, Peace and Love.

Nothing else matters
my woes, pains or trials
He is always there for me
whenever I turn to the above
He never fails
to comfort, stregthen me
He is my Victory, Friend, and Love.

I've "composed" very quickly and out of initial feelings to a hymnal I truly cherish every time I'm in my trials. I'm in no particular trial regarding college, but I still need His comforting. The hymnal is amazing: "God hath not promise skies always blue." I'm really thankful for the Lord's blessing, his unfailing sympathy and undying love. I can always come back to him even though I've strayed away.